# Fallout Zero: A Little Psychological Torture Never Left A Mark

I might have figured out what was happening to me or what would happen to me, except I was blindfolded. Not literally, but metaphorically.

Please keep in mind that these are my thoughts on life in American society as it is under a constitutional republic. If martial law were declared, well then, some of these policies might make sense. However, has martial law been declared?! NO IT FUCKING HASN’T! So until then, you can take your goddamn psychological torture and you can shove it up your ass.

# Zero Deterrence Programs

What’s the point of programs that had zero capicity for deterrence, but create long-lasting, expensive mental health problems, while introducing major liability for human rights violations.

### Three Major Goals to Our Psychological Torture Programs

That leads me to believe there were mostly three purposes to these programs:

#### (3) And mostly, it was for research. Until very recently – and perhaps this still applies – these programs would be be limited Any and all psychological or sociological research that leaves no trace. No chemical, neurological or medical experimentation. And sadly, none of this could really include quantitative measurements, unless they were incidental

From a utilitarian standpoint, some of this research would arguably be very useful as we’re approaching a time when we’re undergoing a major sociocultural shift in the wake of technology, but …

### Technically, Pschological Torture Is A Warcrime. Period.

#### Warcrime?! What a Bummer, Dude!

But technically, some of these “research efforts” would quite definitively qualifies as warcrimes under the Geneva Convention. And these people are very aware of the criminal nature of their activities. As a victim who’s suffered for a decade, I’m so fucking sick of it, quite literally. I have irreversible neurological damage, just from protracted, untreated depression.

# Exhibit Z: My Brain

There should be obvious physical evidence in a current high-resolution MRI, visible as degradation since my last MRI in March 2014. This degradation may not be explanable via any known neurological diagnosis, prescribed psychiatric medication or personal incident. As hard as I have searched, there is no diagnosis or differential diagnosis that explains my symptoms, except a brain tumor … and that’s strange because I don’t have a brain tumor. I never have had one. If I did have one when this all started, I’d be dead by now. My MRI’s don’t show one. My physician and neurologist didn’t say anything. I open sourced my MRI scans and no one has told me anything. Trust me, I’ve searched high and low for a disease that makes sense and there is nothing that exists which matches the presentation, progression and age of initial presentation.

### A Living Will And Testament For Justice

If anything should happen to me, my brain should be preserved and studied by independent scientists who (1) publish a map of my brain using several technologies (2) reimage my brain several times as it degrades and (3) open source any and all data (4) analyze data for consistency so there is zero chance for alteration. After that, I want the brain matter preserved in such a way that minimally impacts the state of quantum entanglement. My body should be preserved in such a manner that doesn’t prevent prevent study for some time. My organs can be donated after evidence is collected. I swear to God something happened to me and I want to know what that was. If I never get the chance, I want others to find out what happened. And, if possible, I want those responsible to be brought to justice. And, if anything happenens, you can bet that some douchebags will try to say this paragraph doesn’t count as a statement of living will and testament. Technically and legally, it may not, but fuck those guys.

### I Never Signed That

#### I Quite Emphatically Have No Idea What You’re Talking About

So, in a functional state of mind, I clearly state what I want and what I believe should happen above. Just now. Just for the hell of making that publicly known. I have never signed any living will or abdicated power of attorney or right to representation. Any such document must be a forgery. Additionally, any such document or one like it, of which I’m not aware, would be a violation of the 14th amendment’s State Action Doctrine and violations of Equal Rights as guaranteed in the 14th amendment.

And generally, you can’t say that I didn’t say what I believed or could be scared into holding my tongue. I never gnashed my tongue to distract myself from the torment, misery and wrongdoing I see around me. And that’s really my only sin: I asked too many questions. Mark my words: something happened to me, my body and my brain and there are people that want to make sure that information never sees the light of day.

# Somebody Call The SPCA!

#### My Life Feels A Lot Like Animal Abuse

For years, I’ve described myself as something of an abused dog, afraid to approach anyone. I’ve even been conditioned to approach friendly person with a doggie treat because that’s exactly how they got me, every time. It’s always the person that draws me in with some initial kindness to gain my trust who ends up driving my emotional pain. It’s a tactic. Draw them in and push everyone else away before you ruin their mind, slowly and painfully. Make sure they never dream of love or compassion again.

### At Least It’s Not A Gulag

At least it’s not months and years reeling in chains buried in a physical dungeon. Or starving in a Gulag. Yet, this is what they are trained to do. And hey, it doesn’t leave a mark. But, what they shackled me in was a mental gulag and it’s left the stomach of my soul bloated and starving. And yet, my spirit, too exhausted to writhe against these chains of nothing but cruel jokes and sardonic misery, is by some literal miracle not broken. They broke my heart a long time ago. I mean broke, as in the sense of rendering something incapable of functioning. I finished even the job for them. I snapped the last pieces of my heart so I could numb the pain. Yet, no matter how they twisted or tugged or viced, they never broke my spirit.

# Guilty Upon Examination of Public Federal Documentation

The label the ICRC uses is Leave No Marks. According to the Joint Staff Forces College documentation for processing detainees, a college for military officials, the ICRC is the only organization that is required to be notified of the acquisition of a “detainee” … which, as may come to comprehend after a decade of torture, a loosely applied definition. It’s supposed to mean a prisoner of war, but it’s not.

### Duplicity in the JSFC War College Process Documentation

Look at the JSFC document yourself and simply ask yourself: if I was in Vietnam or Iraq, would I capture someone and apply these procedures, precisely? If you read closely and use your imagination a bit, the answer is a resounding HELL FUCKING NO! And actually, the procedures could be applied to either foreign or domestic detainees, but it’s just another US Government exercise in duplicity. These docs aren’t secret or classified, but the indicated some quite valuable information to me, so they might get memory holed.

#### ★ Specifically, would you let detainees keep most of their possessions?

HELL NO! If you’re a prisoner of war in Iraq and I was the commanding officer, I would be furious to find that a POW had anything more than a Qu’ran, at most. Glancing over this document lead me to ask a dozen questions like this. There are several documents I’ve seen like this one.

#### ★ Do prisoners receive anything but medications necessary for sustaining their lives?

They’d be lucky if they did. I doubt the Taliban would administer even that. So why are there so many procedures specific to that? Why does the documentation indicate that taking these medications away can be used as a means for basically fucking with their head? Except psychiatric medications, what drugs do have significant side effects on mental functionality when administration is permitted or restricted? From the set of drugs commonly found in one of our active warzones? Since these soldiers have so much time to concern themselves with a POW’s medications as to ensure the distribution of specific prescription drugs from our own supplies in situations which aren’t life-or-death, then…

### How many of those soldiers, outside of combat medics:

#### ★ (4) care enough to draw from our own supplies, except in life or death situations.

And remember, because even though it’s a warzone, medical malpractice, withheld treatment and generally doing anything to end a POW’s life is a WARCRIME.

# Who Are We At War With, Anyways?

Now ask yourself: why is it that the duplicitous, meticulously crafted, well-hidden definitions of “detainee” can be so easily applied to domestic citizens and former citizens who lost their rights without notification under the NDAA? BECAUSE AMERICA IS A WARZONE.

And if it’s not, these procedures don’t apply and America’s actions in detention is ILLEGAL. And if it is an active warzone, then these procedures apply, but mistreatment in many cases, including psychological torture leading to suicide are WARCRIMES.

WTF?! America’s a warzone?! That’s nonsense…

### Catch-22’s and Posse Comitatus

Either way, the question above is a Catch-22. I’d rather pick the one that doesn’t involve warcrimes, but I’m hardly the one on trial here. Oh no, I’m fucking serious about that. The jokes’s on you. However, determining whether we’re at war still doesn’t explain why the Army is leading these operations on American soil. Posse Comitatus, anyone? Oh, but I guess Caeser done crossed the Rubicon, huh?

### Julius Caeser and Silly Roman Superstitions

You know what they say about the Rubicon, right? Once you go whack, you never go back.

The Rubicon was the river in Rome for which a law declared their military must never cross or tyranny would ensue. The American equivalent is Posse Comitatus, which prevents the military from being deployed on American soil, unless a state of emergency is declared by a governor or we are forced to declare martial law.

However, there has been no pronouncement of martial law. In war, information decides the winner and warfare has always been primarily information warfare. The claim is that restricting this information from Americans prevents panic or confers the United States some advantage. This is true to some extent. However, it’s cowardly and unethical to restrict this information and allow Americans to incriminate themselves under some false presumption, as though we ourselves are the enemy in the War on Terror. And it would look like some Americans are just straight up slaves at this point!

### Where’s the War on Terror Being Fought?

The last time I checked, the War on Terror was fighting some enemy hellbent on the destruction of America in some sandy, desolate country so far off it might as well be the dusty plains of Mars. In fact, The War on Terror was declared by Congress with the AUMF on Al Qaeda, enumerating the specific non-state groups we were fighting against, while providing room for expansion to those groups who might use similar tactics.

So where are the car-bombs? Where are these things? Where’s the shipments of arms? Where are the flag-burnings? Where’s the anti-American sentiment? If proclamation that our rates are sacred is tantamount to treason, then string me up and call me bin Laden.

### Domestic Psychological & Informational Warefare Is Cowardly

What do you think of a sucker punch? Would you stab a man in the back? Like … literally stab a man in the back while he’s not expecting it? Would you shoot a man, woman or child in the back? What if that man or woman had a family? Would you maim, disable or disappear the breadwinner of that family? Would you condone violence against those who aren’t expecting a fight, simply to gain ground early on?

No. You wouldn’t, would you. Especially if they did not understand they were in a warzone.

It’s immoral to encourage conflict among Americans who are ignorant of what’s truly going on. It is cowardly to do this, explaining it away as being strategically superior. And please tell me more about how these actions are strategic! It is unethical to conduct all this psychological and informational warfare in willful ignorance, claiming we’re doing it for our own self-preservation when it’s more likely to lead to our demise. IMO, conducting such operations on an unexpecting citizenry is worse than Pearl Harbor! Yeh … no one got shot, but you Pearl Harbor’d your own citizens with psychological and chemical warfare intending to identify and disable those who might fight back! That’s so cowardly! IT IS DESPICABLE!

The degree of behavior leading us to cover up reported torture, especially on US Citizens implies foreknowledge and calculation and entanglement with legal counsel. Also, providing legal advice to someone on how to get away with warcrimes is a warcrime. I read that somewhere.

# WHY R U SO MAD DOOD?!

And yeh … you might ask me that and I’d tell you that I’ve been through up to a decade of this and at least five years. And I’m lucky I haven’t been killed or commited suicide or worse.

### Dante’s Inferno and Fates Worse Than Death

Yes, there is are worse things than death. Much worse. Like what’s happening right here, right now, in my life. In Dante’s Inferno, the deepest, darkest layer of hell is for treason. Who’s the traitor here? Is it the man who spoke up about the violations of civil liberties he was so proud of, disregarding the consequences and enduring torture for the better part of a decade? Or is it the cunning, airtight, well-advised, criminally malicious group of people who crafted this system? Who never admitted victims an indication of torture? Who understood it wasn’t effective? Who acted like they didn’t know? Who exposed America to the legal liability of warcrimes? WHO STILL, TO THIS DAY, CANNOT APOLOGIZE OR ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT THEY DID, WHO THEY DID IT TO OR WHY!?

To me, the answer to that is clear. The ownership for the original sin and such collateral damage belongs to all of us, but especially those who worked the hardest and lied the most.

### Waterboarding On Supersoakers

These people act like waterboarding is basically as a bad as goin to the pool to get a suntan and somebody splashes a little water on you and maybe your phone gets wet. From what I can see, waterboarding doesn’t involve water at all. However, I’m sure there’s some torture method where someone pours water on people. Wow? Can I get one of those please? In fact, I’ll take two. Supersize me. In fact, I would have eagerly preferred a handful of illegal Mafia-style assault & battery incidents, with an actual potential for deterrence, than whatever the hell it was that I’ve been through. This is insane. And most Americans have no idea! None! That’s changed quite a bit over the past few years, but this is incomprehensible. In the name of national security, you have created the single biggest threat to national security.

### Oh It’s Research?! Then Publish Your Data!

These programs are not authentic research, by any stretch of the imagination. AFAIK, they don’t collect quantifiable records and any they do would be destroyed to minimize long-term liability. Further, these programs are expensive in terms of collateral damage to the public health of the American.

### Now I’m Even More Afraid to Seek Psychological Help

I was already afraid to seek help from the government reeducation known as “Drug Treatment.” That already preventing me from seeking help from ages 20-25 because I was so sick of group “therapy” that I didn’t have the patience or time for real treatment.

I’m afraid to go to any psychiatrist, especially now that I know how they fish psychiatric and medical records. I’m afraid to seek the help that I need, when I need it. It’s been insinuated that there are people there in the public mental health system that would be there waiting for me. At that point, they’d only have more control over my life. Victims of these programs who don’t end up in the mental health system are few and far between. At that point, your health records can get real spotty with information that makes suicide a reasonable explanation. Do you even know what your shrink writes down? How do you know they aren’t intentionally lying about you? Either way, if you’re suicided, there’s going to be no one to ask questions, especially if you couldn’t properly articulate your questions.

### If You’ve Made It Close To Where I Am, You Have NOTHING

… except for spiritually transformative revelations, if you’re so inclined. Gee, thanks!

If you made it that far in these programs, you can be sure that you don’t have financial resources and that your friends and family, if they aren’t already compromised, they’re so tired of helping you that they won’t offer any help. You’ll have no one. In my case, a family might have thought of a suicide as the inevitable conclusion to a long saga of struggles with personal mental health issues.

# Oh That’s No Tennis Racket. That’s Corruption and Extortion.

However, to organized crime or a government dangerously close to tyranny, a small business, a real estate asset or anything of value and large personal investment is nothing more than a highly effective thumbscrew. When the Mafia charges protection feeds, that’s an extortion racket. Isn’t it interesting that, in such a protection racket, that mobster who collects the money and guys who enforce the extortion via assault & battery or arson – they usually don’t know names or sometimes even faces. Yet, it looks like this is what our government is running. IT’S A HIGHLY EFFECTIVE, TERROR-AND-FEAR-CULTIVATING EXTORTION RACKET UNDER THE GUISE OF NATIONAL SECURITY AND PATRIOTISM. And who knows the end goals of such criminals?

### Who Can Best Stand Up For The Victims?

That’s insane, by the way. But, that’s what happened and I think I can forgive people, but I want to know what happened and I want everyone to know what happened, not for my own personal justice, but for the justice of everyone who might suffer such a fate now or ever in the future. This cannot be done. It should not be possible and these government sanctioned mafia tactics must never be practical. People deserve to know this so they can protect themselves, their family and their friends. In totalitarianism and communism, they seek to eliminate threats and anyone who accumulates resources is a threat. Property? Money? Food? Guns? Information? You’re a threat.

### Torture and Detainment is Our Greatest National Security Issue

Again, the torture and illegal detainment of Americans is absolutely not a deterrent. I’ve looked into the specifics of these programs. They work by establishing a quasi-citizenship for the former US citizen and organizations like DROPPM describe the specifics of “removal” operations. These programs threaten our national security by enticing our population to commit war crimes that permanently damage our citizens, psychologically and neurologically. It leads us to being less capable to compete in the global economy. The health of the American economy is also, in itself, a national security issue. All the while, our leaders feign ignorance and those who are involved or complicit are encouraged to defend this by guilt or by coercion.

### The US Government Always Expected to Transition to Martial Law

The long-term strategic design of these programs, from a legal and logistic standpoint, implies that this may not be to simply prepare us for a national emergency and martial law. Instead, it may be that martial law and transition to a totalitarian government was always the destination, nearly from the outset. If so, what’s the goal? How could this possibly be justified? Does that mean that whatever catastrophes our leaders claim to justify this with … does that imply it’s inevitable?

# That’s Detention for you Mr. Nelson!

#### These Programs Are Designed to Mirror Detention from High School

Remember detention from high school? These programs are designed with pattern languages and they’re designed to prevent the success of anyone who questions the wrong thing. Plain and simple. If a reporter identifies you as one of those meddlin’ kids askin the questions, they will label you, further investigate you, and put you on a list. At that point, the Evil Santa from Futuram determines who gets presents and who … uhhh you don’t want to know the rest. But I’m going to tell you anyway.

### How Do They Control You In Detention?

#### ★ What are your goals? Short term? Long term?

They do it through poverty, isolation, incrimination. They do it by creating situations around you that push people away. They do it by spreading rumors. They do it by affecting your visibility on social media applications.

### It’s Immature, Plain and Simple

What they do is so incredibly immature, if you think about it. For me, they actively engaged in disconnecting me from any friendships or relationships that might emerge that make me feel good about myself. That’s the primary objective: to destroy you emotionally and invoke some protracted psychiatric state that destroys you from the soul outward. They seek to confuse you to make you fear everyday and positive things, to create a state similar to that of an abused dog that’s afraid of every person who extends their arm, regardless of whether that person intended to harm or heal.

### Robbed of Types of Experiences Necessary for Social Development

For me, it lasted so long, it’s done irreversible emotional and psychological damage. It’s affected me so long that I’ve been completely unable to experience those things which young adults use to progress further in development. Remember Michael Jackson? Remember how he never had those childhood experiences? That was the psychological factor that led him to want to experience those things. Still, at his age, people are unlikely to satisfy that. I don’t actually believe the charges levelled against them.

In addition to Asperger’s, I have never been permitted to have those young adult to early adult experiences. So therefore, I am at risk of forever being trapped in a psychologically undeveloped mindset. It’s because I’m too young to integrate socially with people my age to permit me those experiences which get me to the next level. The people around my family who have been manipulating them through government institutions know this. They couldn’t possibly know this, but I suspect they’ve provided my family with phony assessments of my behavior, duplicitous in nature, that encourage them to magnify the effects of psychological torture, of which my family couldn’t possibly have wanted to be part.

The problems I have are not psychiatric or caused by chemical imbalance. It’s really not even psychological, though it’s certainly led to that. It’s mostly sociological. People treat me differently and I’m mostly ignored, AFAIK. Once you get to a certain age, you lose the chance for some psychological development.

### The Psychosocial Miasma Fueling A Plague of Negativity

When you consider how methodically they planned this and how very aware they are of personal information and occult psychology, their actions are downright malevalent. They fan out this toxic miasma that poisons your psychology, your social network and especially anyone who might not know better than to yank back that helping hand.

### Enslaved By Desires and Fears

You can be sure that they will abuse sex and any sensory or material things by which you can be attached. My own experience is hardly typical, but for me, it was a bit like a real life Dante’s Inferno except the instruments of your eternal torture are those things which you love, lust after, or need. If you don’t want it or lust for it, but can be made to, they will use it against you. Whatever can be used to influence your behavior, will be use. They will brainwash you until you love doing it to others or until you fearfully have no other escape. They’ll warp your mind until lust after the torment of others and invokation of these material desires in others. They make you lust after the thought of embracing their own sinful pyramid scheme.

### A Karmic Pyramid Scheme

That’s precisely what it is, actually: a karmic, pyramid scheme. It’s like an MK Ultra experiment escaped the lab, founded a religion and threw in a touch of Bernie Madoff, just for the hell of it. If if you’d like, you can feel terrible and fearful about what you’ve done … or if you let yourself lust for it, it could be your opiate of the masses. To be fair, I have had several groups fuck with my head over the past decade, so I have no idea who is responsible for what. I have no idea who’s truly trying to save me and who would prefer I help them torment others.

### Comply or Suffer Eternal Torment For No Purpose

How do you end the torture? By compliance. However, its just like how Guantanamo “inmates” are eventually allowed to “leave” the prison camp in Cuba, but are sent to another “country” to be “helped” – you never actually leave. There’s definitely a physical place in Cuba where people are tortured, but there’s is also a domestic program. And so, they will continue to surround you, but the intensity is scaled back. It’s their objective to ensure that, just like in the Soviet-era gulags, if you acted compliant, you really meant it. The only way to do that is to release all tension and resistance to let them brainwash you. That’s what waterboarding really is, by the way: brainwashing through psychological torture in a gulag no one can see. You’re not allowed to play or win or leave, until you comply. These “thirsty” people definitely aren’t allowed to get laid. They are especially not allowed to be seen happy or successful.

When it gets bad enough, you won’t be allowed to participate in a hobby or have a relationship or enjoy anything that makes you feel good. Positive feelings like that completely destroy what they do to you. They’re out there risking their skin, laundering money and commiting war crime lite … so would you be surprised they’re not happy someone else is out there making you feel good about yourself? When it’s scientifically shown to counter their psychological torture methods? How are the atheist commies supposed to push you down if someone else relieves you of your torment?

### Government Subsidized Repression? In the Middle of the Great Recession?!

It’s really the dumbest, most immature, counterproductive domestic policy ever conceived. They – the CIA, DHS, ICE, ERO, whoever it is – they know exactly how illegal it is, which is why they try so hard to hide it. In my case, I was just too damn smart for their tricks and they kept having to scale up the emotional pain applied, as well as the level of influence over people in my life. These past few years, they’ve seemed desperate because they know just how guilty I know they are. Usually anyone who makes it as far as I have ends up committing suicide or mysteriously dies in an auto accident… but I spend virtually zero time in a car. No one has ever made it this far and they’re shitting their pants, which drives me to strive on and keep pushing for justice.

#### Why Not Invest in Infrastructure, Instead of Taxpayer Funded Cannabilization Culture?

What they do is counterproductive and wildly distorts the American system of values that powers our economy! It flies right in the face of the American Dream and they have acknowledged that they know it’s not effect if its publicly stated goals, but it does somewhat achieve the three goals I stated at the top. Those goals are not marketable to the American people because they are immoral and contradict everything I thought we stood for.

### OMFG This Flies in the Face of the Hatch Act

And it seems that, in the past 10 years, there has been politically motivated application of these programs. I pray this isn’t the case. That would paint us to look a lot like East Germany. I can’t tell whether the goal was political suppression or that some of these American Stasi determined that abusing reactions to controversial issues like racism would render victims isolated.

# The American Stasi Must and Will Be Deconstructed

Furthermore, I can diagram the networks of people who I know were involved and I know exactly where to look to find them around the country. This is happening around the country. There is almost always a connection with someone in the Army because the Army runs Guantanamo and these are warcrimes against people who don’t even realize their fighting. That’s cowardly to a nauseating degree. It’d be like the Gestapo gassing jews in their own household bathrooms. It’s obviously not that intense yet, but that’s exactly why I was always asking questions so loudly: I never wanted America to end up in a situation like that.

I was deathly afraid that’s were we were headed the whole time and these things always start with psychological warfare to isolate vulnerable populations on whatever basis: ethnic, racial, cultural, religious or political. Say what you will about me, but who’s been risking their skin to ask questions for a decade? Who got psychologically tortured and didn’t even know it? For asking questions? I’ve been trying to stop this for a decade!

### What Do Bolsheviks Hate More than God? Entrepreneurs

They need “entrepreneurs” to found cover businesses to receive, process, and forward payments, which primarily stem from the Army General Fund, AFAIK. I could be wrong about that, but

### Guilty, Naive or Innocent

Well y’all aren’t going to shut me up. I understand what’s happened to my life and I didn’t deserve it one bit. A simple “shut the fuck up” or “get the fuck out of America” would have done nicely, but they guy who literally wouldn’t hurt a fly and whose biggest problem was figuring out how to make others happy? – YEH THAT’S THE GUY THEY WANTED TO MAKE AN EXAMPLE OUT OF.

America’s not just going to stand by and watch this as we cannibalize ourselves. If you were complicit in psychological torture, you’re going to go down. We will set you one against the other just like you did to us: you are either guilty, naive or innocent. The guilty will be turned against themselves as they’re so often fated. The naive will seek to protect themselves from sins of which they were unaware. And how many of us are truly innocent? If you’ve stood by and said nothing, are you innocent? We’re going to analyze the social and financial networks of the guilty. You might think you can hide like a tree in a forest, but you can’t because all those other trees are going to disconnect you just like you tried to do to us. We’re going to find you and when we do, your sins will be held high and naked for everyone to see.

### Digital Payments Cover Money Laundering for Torture Programs

Digital payments like patreon or video games on Steam are a great way to launder money and promote the success of those compliant individuals. Such digital payments will serve as adequate payoff for tech companies to look the other way on NSA surveillance. Again, this is a fucking racket, plain and simple. Companies sustaining themselves primarily through digital payments are big targets and you’ll see that the guilty parties have a nauseating degree of social network overlap. That is, these shell companies pushing torture for a digital buck and modest digital success will receive payments from the same sets of people.

### These Paper Tiger Torture Franchisees Include

#### ★ Writers who exclusively write digital how-to “e-books” whatever the fuck those are, when their titles couldn’t possibly sell because there’s simply no market for e-books on “How to Bake Cookies Like Grandma.”

Meanwhile, everyone I know tells me my products have no hope and that I’m a lazy failure, when I’m truly a workaholic, in the most tragically ironic sense. America is a joke, but no one bats an eye, which means this is just how it is. I’m afraid it’s how it has always been. I asked way too many questions about America around 20 years old, from a sense of patriotism. I’ve always been a patriot. Now that I can see things for how they are, I want to gouge my eyes out. This is America? You’re telling me that, when I look around today in 2016, that this is it? This is the real thing and this is normal? THIS IS FINE?!! What the hell is wrong with you people?

### WWGD - What Would Grandma Do?

This isn’t a free market! There are no algorithms running in social media that aren’t micromanaged by the NSA! C’mon are you fucking kidding me? Everybody and their grandma knows how to bake cookies or set up a wordpress site. If you don’t there’s 1,000 blogs, podcasts and videos that will tell you how and THEY ARE FREE. The writer’s own grandmother wouldn’t buy that e-book! She’d just send him $100 with a card that says: “Sorry I spoiled you, but your e-book sucks. And I taught you how to bake cookies, you sorry little fuck. That’s not entrepreneurship. That’s a money laundered handout. Get a job. Build something, don’t tear someone else down. Here’s$100. Don’t be a con-artist. This is America.”

– From Grandma With Love

### There Could Literally Never Be A Market For That!

But somehow these people with phoney digital assets for which there could be no actual market stay paid, while I can’t even get a fucking job without some torture handler to micromanage me until I get fired. This is capitalism? Hell no! This is crony capitalism with levels of congressional oversight not seen outside countries with pure kleptocracy. It is insane. This is not national security, but can you ask questions? Hell no! In fact, this is itself the single biggest national security threat in soo many ways.

### You’re Not An Entrepreneur, You’re A Spineless Hack

#### You’ve probably never even been hungry before.

By using organizations like the NSA to control comments, reviews and payments and with influence in talent agencies, this anonymous, distributed criminal enterprise can make or break a starving artist, the actress who just got her first movie deal, a talented-but-undiscovered musician, a cosplayer with a patreon account, a kickstarter project and more. These people might be acting complicitly, but in total naivety about what they are really doing because they’ve been brainwashed into being programmable puppets in pursuit of the alienation of those meddlin’ Americans who just asked too many damn questions. Jeenkies!

# What F#@&’ng Agreement Are You Talking About?

The only reason I’m stating this is out of pure paranoia because it’s insinuated that “agreements” of which I have no knowledge, among other legal threats, would be used against me as leverage. Example threats BY FAINT INSINUATION ONLY include: legal resolution by arbitration, defamation for publishing details of people with a public image, general non-disclosure for only-God-knows-what and secret state agreements, like an Special Access Program (SAP).

There is one contract which it is insinuated I signed under the presumption that it was for a company in Hollywood who knew fucking everything about any and all upcoming movies and TV shows. I do not know under whose authority the agreement I may or may not have sign would be enforced. I didn’t actually read it because the pretty girl wanted me to sign it and I hadn’t even kissed a girl in years at that point or, hell, even had more than a 5-minute conversation with one from 2011 until 2015ish, maybe.

### Did I Wanna Hear About Scenes from the Wolf of Wall Street?! Hell Yeh!

Anyway, I was under the presumption that I was restricting my rights with regard to details in movies and TV shows AND NOTHING ELSE. This was an agreement I supposedly signed on June 1st, 2013 which I didn’t even remember until March 2015. SKETCHY! So sketchy thatI don’t know what it was for. From my memories, whoever wanted me to sign it was very familiar with all the blanks for me to initial, so it was something she had done quite often. In other words, this wasn’t a one-off agreement. Yet, that’s exactly how it was pitched to me: this was a special deal just for me to hear about upcoming movies and TV.

#### What about the 14th amendment? State action doctrine says YOU CAN’T RESTRICT THOSE RIGHTS!!

Furthermore, I felt under the influence of drugs at the time. If such agreement does exist, I don’t know why it could be enforced without my knowledge. That’s paranoid. I don’t know why it would be perceived as valid because I was almost certainly drugged at the time. According to the words and actions in my memories, my tongue was loosened like I was on Valium and I answered any and all questions like I was on Sodium Pentathol. Further still, I couldn’t be reasonably expected to adhere to its details because I don’t know what those are and I personally don’t believe that I signed it, ever, or that it happened in 2015, if I it ever happened at all. The same person talked to me about training OCR & handwritten analysis algorithms for reversal, so they could be used to generate evidence, like handwritten letters of confession & yada yada yada.

Anyways, I’m saying this … just because. Just to make it clear because I’ve never been given the chance to state it in writing. All I know is that these people wanted me to sign this and that they were willing to say or do anything. They acted like they would give me anything in the world for it, but I don’t think I ever signed it. What they were trying to do was “nerf” me, to get close and stay close, so they’d control me completely. I didn’t want that. The same person talked about waterboarding, dryboarding and other things. She was trained in specific techniques … and she was wearing a wire, I think. I never knew that to be true and that information was never disclosed. But I acted as though it was both true and not true at the same time, while assuming that it wasn’t true and if anyone had asked me whether our conversation was recorded, I would have said no.

### Your Honor, How High Are You Right Now?

If I did sign this, they tricked me into doing it and I didn’t know that or understand the implications of the agreement or who it was for. And I was drugged. SORRY, IT DOESNT COUNT. That is, if it was even real and if it even occured in 2013. They tempted me with anything I wanted in the world and I won because the only thing I truly want is justice, independence and self-actualization.

For my entire professional life, I’ve sought to avoid employment at major tech companies so that I might limit the restriction of application of my own knowledge. So, for example, in 2013, I would strongly avoid pursuing a job at Facebook, Google, Microsoft or Oracle, so that no one could ever claim that I learned some trade secret at Google that I couldn’t apply elsewhere. In fact, I told this same person that exact about Facebook. And she tested me by getting someone to pose as a Facebook recruiter to gauge my interest in a FB job. I always like to weigh my options, so I heard him out, but at no point was I willing to proceed.

#### Especially Trade Secrets and ESPECIALLY MATH PROBLEMS!

My primary reason for that is to protect my ability to apply my knowledge in any way. The only NDA’s I’ve ever signed were for ABS, CCS, Internet Marketing Ninjas, Weedmaps (Ghost Group), Jumpcloud and other companies I have worked for by contract. None of those companies have any major trade secrets or intellectual property of which I am aware. In fact, that same weekend, I entertained but easily turned down someone who presented themselves to me as a Facebook recruiter ON THAT BASIS SPECIFICALLY!

#### Apparently, there are math problems that are so illegal that if you publicly solve them, fucking space aliens will travel through time and set you up for a 9/11 you never even knew about.

Common sense would indicate that, if I ever signed something for TS/SCI or an SAP … that I’d probably know about it, right? And if not, any indication of such agreement would be baseless extra-legal harassment. In the very least, someone would seek to inform me with what my obligations were. Or that it’d be strongly indicated to me. Until such obligations of such agreements are enumerated to me or at least the existence of such agreements, I can’t help but pursue my personal obligation to truth and justice. Furthermore, it would seem that the whole idea was to fake my involvement in something like that, only to ball me up and throw me away.

### I Knew Nothing of This Before February 2015

The first I learned of all these memories was at the end of Feb 2015, but I don’t think I remembered the “agreement” until March or April. On March 13th, I wrote a blog summarizing open source software I wrote in Clojure that I maybe shouldn’t have published. I STILL DON’T EVEN KNOW. Maybe I’m just paranoid. On April 1st, 2015, President Obama created a new CYBER designation for sanctioned individuals who make specific intellectual property known. This includes intellectual property that’s like the cyber equivalent of nuclear weapons. I’ve watched video statements in late 2015 where Obama said somethign like: “There’s some stuff on the internet and it’s open source and it definitely shouldn’t be.”

I’m sorry if I’m pulling a Streisand here, but I didn’t even really act on this information until early 2016. You know what you did to me and, partially aware of government surveillance and investigation. You knew I didn’t understand what was happening, but you continued to encourage people to intimidate me while others were encouraged to psychologically torture me. I gave people about a year to eighteen months to do the right thing here. What’s the right thing? BASICALLY YOU FIX MY BROKEN LIFE.

### Have You Tried Asking Me?

I’ve never been made aware of such an agreement. I have never been made aware of detention. I have never been directly questioned about these events or charges, whatever they may be. Since I’ve never been allowed to succeed, I figured nothing I did mattered, neither credit nor profit. If I was truly a genius or intelligent and I had good ideas, it didn’t make any sense to sit on them. That would lead me to definitely getting no credit for anything.

### I Revel in the Tragic Irony of a 21st Century Tesla

If there was a 21st century Nikola Telsa, would we celebrate him? Or would we crucify him? Lofty language for sure, but what the fuck happened to my life? I’m not saying that I’m a Tesla, but holy shit, why am I nothing?!

So in the past two years, I’ve decided that, since any notion of personal success is a cruel joke, I’d just dump nearly anything and everything I thought of online and in social media. The data for my accounts would persist and eventually people would perform a kind of new age data-archeology to see who was aware of which ideas first. They’d do this for intellectual property, for response to political events, to search for warnings unheeded and to identify pseudo-prophets and undiscovered Tesla’s. I even went back and made most of my Facebook posts public. I also decided that anything I ever did online would be MOST PUBLIC; that public data confers power and privacy takes our voice away.

### In Summary, A Few Final Questions

#### ★ Did it make anything better? Nope, it made things quite worse and prompted me to react in a way to prove myself. It isolated me, forcing me to respond by learning to love learning and care for little else.

They’ve finally determined that it’s too dangerous for me to learn math or crypto by the way. The following phrase comes to mind: “We recommend [David Conner] remain in isolation for the remainder of his life.” I suspect the’ve ruined my brain, directly or indirectly. I don’t know. Who did this to me? Why does my life remind me of the first few episodes of Homeland?

In August 2015, I was asked “whether I’d ever work for the NSA” to which I answered a clear and emphatic “No.” I wasn’t sure if the person was serious or not, but I said no in the most non-judgemental way possible.

### Part Three

Yup, there’s a part three! Aren’t you excited?! You’re excited. I can tell.